Darkest Timeline AU Flashback Meme

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DARKEST TIMELINE AU FLASHBACK MEME
Did you work out something for your character's darkest timeline AU that you love so much it would be an absolute crime not to be able to write it out for real? WHAT LUCK! This meme is here for all your flashback-from-the-future needs. It's also the place to display sad single-character vignettes, letters that were never sent to dead friends, and anything else your dastardly little heart desires. Go forth and suffer.

The contents of this meme do not count for AC. For AC, you must participate in the real logs for the event, which will take place in Cloudreach 9:48, or else continue your normal non-event RP in the present (Guardian 9:43). However, you can count log threads in this meme toward your rewards points for the month.

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[justice_is_blond]

Anders looks up, feeling the weakest he's felt in so long. Being with Nate had given him so much strength and confidence, because Nate had so much faith in him.

"You..." Words fail him, and he buries his face against Nate's neck. "Tell me? When it's building to too much. Some warning, or something, or anything." No warning would be enough. Only a cure would, and now it's too late. He should have worked harder on a cure before, should have done a thousand things earlier, but since he can't undo that, at least he can make this time count.

"Stay here today? Stay with me for the day? Please?"

[pinprick]

For a moment, Nathaniel is torn between love and duty. People need him at the perimeter--or else, they do not. Optimistically, they can manage one day without him. Especially when he is distracted as he is. No, this is a choice of the heart, a choice of what he will regret the least if he were to die tomorrow.

He leans in and presses his lips to Anders'. "All right. All right, I will stay today."

[justice_is_blond]

There are potions to make and messages to send, but he needs this day as well. Just the one, he reminds himself, it wouldn't be right to ask for more, but this one he can treasure. Anders kisses back slowly, taking his time. This is what they have.

He reaches down to unlace his boots before kicking them off, returning his arms to being around Nate right away.

"I still remember the day you dropped me, you know. The most handsome man in Amaranthine, deliberately choosing not to have me in his arms. You'd standards, then."

[pinprick]

"I'd no senses." A half-chuckle, half-cough, a scoff of disgust at himself. How much earlier he could have started this happiness, and how much longer he could have been with Anders. "You were the most handsome man in Amaranthine. I'd just sworn off love thinking it was all like my parents'."

[justice_is_blond]

He presses his face to the side of Nate's neck, inhaling and getting comfortable. Or as comfortable as he could get with this looming over them.

"You've always had so much sense. But feelings and baggage, they're real and they weigh people down." He should know. He's spent so much time being tied to the past and blaming others for what happened then that he's missed out on some of what life could have offered. "You're the practical one, between us. The, the anchor."

His voice breaks and he swallows, trying to keep from getting too worked up. "Let's, I don't, I want to talk about the happy things. We've had them. And I need them, right now."

[pinprick]

Nathaniel breathes, and breathes, and at last finds his center. Happy things. Drowns out the song in his head.

"The day you married me. Remember Kaisa's speech?"

[justice_is_blond]

"I do." She'd talked about how they deserved happiness and how she hoped every day was more happy. They've had happiness, more than Anders ever expected to have. He just selfishly wishes they had more.

"Something about you deserving me." A part of him wants to joke about her being wrong, say that Nate deserves better, but he's not sure he can convey that it's meant to be a joke right now. "It was probably the most sappy she's ever been. I almost drowned in the sugariness of it, and I'm a fan of sap, my handsome, brave, strong, sexy Barchen." A beat. "It was... nice. Really nice. All of it was. I got to marry you, and it was celebrated by our friends. I've seen so many impossibilities, but that was the best of them."