Darkest Timeline AU Flashback Meme

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DARKEST TIMELINE AU FLASHBACK MEME
Did you work out something for your character's darkest timeline AU that you love so much it would be an absolute crime not to be able to write it out for real? WHAT LUCK! This meme is here for all your flashback-from-the-future needs. It's also the place to display sad single-character vignettes, letters that were never sent to dead friends, and anything else your dastardly little heart desires. Go forth and suffer.

The contents of this meme do not count for AC. For AC, you must participate in the real logs for the event, which will take place in Cloudreach 9:48, or else continue your normal non-event RP in the present (Guardian 9:43). However, you can count log threads in this meme toward your rewards points for the month.

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[aceso]

"Do?" She releases a bitter half-laugh. "There is not much I can do now. I cannot heal. I cannot cook. I am at a loss. But I will leave this base and go west, closer to the mountains. I would like to be closer to my friends in the Avvar hold." Because they may have to take a knife to her. She doesn't think she can do it herself.

[circleprodigy]

Inessa nods dully, having heard about that Avvar hold some time ago though she hasn't been there herself. "I understand. If you see Venatori on the way...destroy as many as you can, please. We at least still have the power to make them suffer as well. It's something not to be wasted."

She ponders her own fate, but it's not time to leave, not yet...and perhaps she won't. Instead of sequestering herself, the idea of throwing herself into battle and falling in that fashion has appeal. She can at least take the enemy forces down with her.

[aceso]

"Perhaps they will be my end, but I will use all my strength to face them if I see them." It would be one way to go out; not quietly but loud and bloody.

She sighs and looks away, images flashing in her head of what her corruption will look and feel like.

"Thank you for all you have done. I should prepare to leave. I will take the materials with me, to dispose of on the way. No where will be safe, but I can at least dump it all near places of red lyrium coming from the ground. That way I am not despoiling a place that is not already ruined."

[circleprodigy]

Watching Christine, she sighs to see her so demoralized and at the end of her rope, well-aware that she's staring into a mirror. But there's no real comfort to offer, nothing that wouldn't sound utterly hollow at this point. She rubs her temple, trying to ignore the building headache that's come of so few hours resting in favor of research. "Thank you as well, for giving me a focus. I don't know what I would have done with myself in the past year, were it not for that." In all likelihood, she might have given into despair and met her end sooner than she will now.

"That's a sound plan. I suppose the notes ought to be scrapped, when they don't hold the answers we seek, but it will be difficult to do so when we've poured so much into them."

[aceso]

"I know. I am sure letting go of the lyrium will be difficult because of the pull it has, but I am determined on that front. In a way, giving up the research is worse. I think I should leave behind notes on its dangers, but anything concerning its power or abilities it grants should be burned."

All that work will be gone in a puff of smoke, but it's for the best. This is the end for Christine, and it seems her worst nightmares are coming true. Her greatest fear is failure, and that's what this is. She's failed everyone around her and even herself. There is no way for her to feel more low than she does right now. She wants to scream and shout that this isn't fair; that she shouldn't have to suffer this way, but she's just one of many now suffering in this world. No, Christine will stay dignified until she's out on her own. Only then will she break completely.

"Well, I suppose this is it?" Time to part ways.

[circleprodigy]

Christine's right, and she knows it, but it still hurts to think of burning the rest of those notes. Still, she's not going to make this more difficult by protesting. What's the point, when all that research didn't help them or anyone else in the end?

"I'll take care of it, I promise. You have enough to deal with." She takes a deep breath and nods, her pained gaze locking with Christine's. And then she ignores her usual reserve once more to give her a parting hug.

[aceso]

"Oh," she says, surprised by the offer. Christine is a woman who rarely relinquishes control. It's because she's a perfectionist who always feels she can do the best job, but she recognizes this bit of kindness from Inessa. Christine has enough to suffer through now, and she doesn't yet know that Inessa is going to end up the same way, so she'll let the healthier of the two handle it.

"Thank you. I leave it in your hands." Christine hugs her back gently, mostly with her arms because she holds her hands away from Inessa's body just a bit. She has to get used to the absence of touch now.

"Goodbye."