Darkest Timeline AU Flashback Meme

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DARKEST TIMELINE AU FLASHBACK MEME
Did you work out something for your character's darkest timeline AU that you love so much it would be an absolute crime not to be able to write it out for real? WHAT LUCK! This meme is here for all your flashback-from-the-future needs. It's also the place to display sad single-character vignettes, letters that were never sent to dead friends, and anything else your dastardly little heart desires. Go forth and suffer.

The contents of this meme do not count for AC. For AC, you must participate in the real logs for the event, which will take place in Cloudreach 9:48, or else continue your normal non-event RP in the present (Guardian 9:43). However, you can count log threads in this meme toward your rewards points for the month.

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[motherfucking_ghost]

It's the unspoken truth between them. It was never an easy road for them, and yet at the same time, it seemed so natural to slip into. Their relationship, undefined yet understood. To break that sanctity, even after so long? It takes the breath out of him. She's never been more serious in her life.

What he wants to say is some quip she wouldn't understand about how their lives ended up being part of a drama instead of a wacky romantic comedy.

What he says instead comes after a long several moments of trying to find his voice, scrabbling for words that have disappeared completely on him while he tries, and fails, to keep his face from crumpling into something pathetic and sorrowful. Because she means this. She means she's going to leave, and she means she's going to die, and it's going to suck an assload. His voice is small, cracks on the first letter like a creaky door. "Don't."

Don't do any of those things. Don't leave. Don't suffer. Don't die. And don't say something like that. Don't say it now when it might not ever have a chance to happen again. He's no good with emotions, never has been, and he emphasizes his small yet emphatic point by leaning in to desperately kiss her.

[aceso]

Christine never wants to hurt him, but what she's telling him is doing almost as much damage as the corruption would. His voice and expression are devastating to her, but she could never have slipped away in the middle of the night with only a note left for him to read. She could never run off and abandon him without a word. And so they have to go through this pain together.

At least he knows. She needs him to know how he's changed her life.

The kiss causes her to grab hold of his shirt in her fists, sharp pain flaring in her fingers as she tightens her grip. She makes a soft noise of pain, but kisses him back because there's only so much she can take. There's a limit to her resolve and it's crumbled just enough to allow them this: one last moment to express their feelings through actions, not words.

[motherfucking_ghost]

Even now, he's hurting her. And if she stays, it might continue like this. She might hurt him. He might hurt her. And then she'll linger, and she'll die. She won't just wink out of existence in one fell swoop. There'll be nothing to look for, no part of her to hunt for desperately for one more chance. But this pain, this is the worst kind of pain. It needs to stop happening. They need to stop leaving. They leave and then they die and then he dies, some part of him dies alongside.

"Don't," he repeats when he parts just far enough to get it out, dotting her lips with kiss after kiss. "Don't do it." If he impresses his love onto her enough, maybe it'll sink in. "Don't leave me. Don't leave me, please. I ca--fuck it, Chris, I can't--"

One of the worst things is knowing he'll keep going after she's left. After she dies, even, he'll still keep going. It's really almost not fucking fair.

[aceso]

So this is what a heart feels like when it breaks. Christine never would have thought it was real, this feeling. It was always just an expression before now. Tears fall freely from her eyes, and she takes short ragged breaths before forcing herself to shake her head no. A life with him is what she wants, but something she can't have now.

"I do not want to. Believe me." She stops herself to gasp for breath because the tears won't stop and she can hardly breathe because this hurts so much. "I cannot stay and infect others. W-We can talk through the crystals..." Even she knows what poor consolation that is right now. Taking his face in her hands, Christine looks deeply into his eyes. "I am here. I am. If you promise to remember me as I was, before all this? Then I will always be with you." She presses a hand over his heart. "In here. I know. You do not have to say it. I know you love me too."